Monday, November 22, 2010

history maker

Today was sort of a drama. A friend of one of the kids came for lunch. This child comes allot lately. He is a latch key kid. His mom is never home. Instead of going home, he comes to us. I don't mind taking care of him, but I'm really kind of angry at his mom for never really being there. Some times I struggle with how much I should I enabling her irresponsibility? I have got to get over it! He is a kid, alone! It's not his fault. It's never the kids fault! I'm struggling with setting up boundaries...maybe I should just give without boundaries? But he isn’t my son…and I just don’t know what is correct?

Then I had a problem with one of my kids. He was doing something we asked him not to do. Buying yugioh cards. But I've grown as a parent. I talked, I didn't yell. The real problem is he is bored. There is a void, and he needs to fill it. He needs a hobby that he can be passionate about. Something that captures his imagination, and fills his thoughts and time. Right now he is bored, and gets into a small bit of trouble. It's really nothing big, but I was disappointed with him. I must say (and I did say to him) that he has grown allot lately. He gives me many more things to be proud of...compared to the few disappointments. I told him not to throw the baby out with the bath water. I explained what that means (to get rid of the good parts as well as the bad parts of something when you are trying to improve ). We are making progress. I'm a better parent, and he is a better son. Nether of us is perfect.
But the day is about done. And I checked my e-mail. Nicole is taking singing lessons. She recorded the song History maker by Delirious today. She sent me a copy of the Mp3. It blessed me to hear her sing it with all her heart, and mean it. Someday I hope I'll hear Philip and Thomas and Sarah, and their friends also singing this song from their hearts...and mean it. You don't just adopt kids, like bringing home a cute puppy. You have to raise them. Sometimes they are messy, and some times their friends are messy. It makes life stressful, and full. My life is very full. I'm never bored! I'm doing what I want my children to do..."find something that fuels your imagination, and fills your time". And I want to be a history maker!

History Maker

Is it true today that when people pray
Cloudless skies will break
Kings and queens will shake
Yes it's true and I believe it
I'm living for you

Is it true today that when people pray
We'll see dead men rise
And the blind set free
Yes it's true and I believe it
I'm living for you

I'm gonna be a history maker in this land
I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind
I'm gonna stand, I'm gonna run
Into your arms, into your arms again
Into your arms, into your arms again

Well it's true today that when people stand
With the fire of God, and the truth in hand
We'll see miracles, we'll see angels sing
We'll see broken hearts making history
Yes it's true and I believe it
We're living for you

Written by Martin Smith

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